The Moo Review

Haven't posted in ages.  In the dark place right now.  Not as scary as it sounds, just frustrating.  I'm trying to get moving again.  It will happen.  Just gotta dig outta the hole.  Emails to answer, phone calls to return, bills to pay, work to do.  It will happen.

I am completely stuck right now.  No work getting done.  Bills to pay, actions to take and totally stuck.  Ugh.  Double Ugh. 

 Lookin' to dig myself out of a bit of a hole.  Not a huge hole, but gotta get out all the same.  Bills to pay, taxes to file, volunteer work to do, junk to get rid of and a house to clean.  I feel better just writing it.  Ahhhh.

It's the end of another day and I'm ready for bed.  Almost.  I need to do my grateful list for today and my journal is in the same room as a hopefully sleeping hubby.

1.  Made a kick butt batch of Mushroom Bisque today and it is delish! 
2.  Having a Jeff Bday bash tomorrow and the house already looks good.
3.  Jeff and Julia said they would bake the cake and the pie tomorrow morning (we'll see about that one).
4.  I almost have all my can't wear right now clothes packed up and ready for the attic.
5.  I had time to play Guitar Hero at the end of a very busy day.  Perfecting my medium skills.

Looking forward to a fun day tomorrow with games and family and food and drink! 

I have let my kids watch American Idol and now they won't stop singing "We're Brothers til the End of Time".   They are now officially cut off from any more American Idol!!

I want a snowstorm.  A real, sock it to me, stuck in the house for days, fire in the fireplace, hot chocolate and cookies snowstorm.  AND I WANT IT NOW!!!!!!!

 The hubby is upstair sleeping, peacefully I hope, and I won't wake him to write today's grateful list in my journal.  Here it is:

1.  I mastered three songs on "Medium" in Guitar Hero tonight.  I'm so lame!
2.  I got a great parking place at the library today, which is no small task!
3.  I got the nicest smile from a woman who I let out into traffic today.  It made my day.
4.  I was so happy to see my oldest when we got home today.  I tried to pick him up after an after school activity only to find it was cancelled and he wasn't there.  I was just glad to see his face, safe and sound.
5.  My family.

I'd really be grateful if I were asleep right now.  I will also be grateful if I make it through the entire day tomorrow without crashing!  The Jules and I are headed to Philly to see "High School Musical on Ice".  Now that's entertainment!

It's now Wednesday morning at 2:13 and I am nowhere near being able to fall asleep.  We were all sick over the holidays and our schedules are all messed up.  Not that I'm complaining, because we had a very cozy little break from the world.  We were able to hang with the family on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, but the rest of the holiday break was recoup time.  We all stayed up until 1:30 a.m. on New Year's Eve and are paying the price now and when it's time to get going for school and work.  The kids are really going to be fun to be with around 7:00 this morning!!

I am up making use of my awake time by:

1.  Making list of projects I need to complete and listing the steps necessary to complete them.
2.  Putting the Andrew Weil "Breathing" CD on my iPod so I can try and relax and MAYBE get some sleep before dawn.
3.  Making a list of five things that I am grateful for.

Next list, or "The Five Things I'm Grateful for Today"

1.  A nice dinner out with the family, which was a good way to end our little escape week.
2.  M, best guy ever.
3.  J1, quick with the problem solving and a sweet kid.
4.  G, who can be about as lovey dovey as a kid can be.
5.  J2, funniest and most loving little girl ever.

That's today's list.  Now on to trying to get some sleep!!

Summer's over and it's back to reality.  I did a major disappearing act this summer and it felt great.  I am learning to say no to some of the volunteer stuff and that also feels great.  I've asked to be relieved of the gifted program stuff which is HUGE and now I can concentrate on the elementary school stuff for now.  I'll even have time to help out with my daughter's Brownie troop.  Imagine that, actually being able to do something with the kids!

We went to the shore this weekend to spend a weekend with the hubby's family.  It started off well enough with the exception that hubby's brother did not know that hubby's parents were going to be staying with him and his wife.  Small details.  We all met on the beach for an afternoon of fun in the sun and it was lovely.  We hosted dinner that night, a backyard barbeque of hot dogs, burgers, etc. and wine.  Lots and lots of wine.  

We then went to see the fireworks on the beach.  While pulling out of the driveway, I cut the wheel to sharply and nailed a little fence we have.  The fence still stands, but the front bumper is now ripped off the car and part of all that underneath stuff is duct taped to the car.  It actually helps me to find my car in a crowded parking lot.  Everyone drives a gray Honda Odessey, but nobody else drives one without a front bumper!

The night ended with the hubby mentioning that his tooth was bothering him.  That was the understatement of the year.  It looks like it's infected and we left for home a day early because he really needed to get to a dentist.  He's on antibiotics and Vicodin to try and dull the pain.  I was on Vicodin for my ankle/leg mess, so he really has to be hurting.  Tomorrow he goes to see an endodontist who will hopefully fix this thing.

I hope we wait a few weeks before we go to the beach again.  It's more excitement than I can handle.

This is going to sound weird, but did you ever have so many thoughts at the same time that you just freeze up and don't know what to do?  When I try to clean or work on a project, I see all these things that need to be done and I think things like, "If I was really going to do a great job, this step needs to be done before that can happen" and a million other things that generally just lead to me sitting here thinking that there's just too much out there to accomplish.  How do you shut the overactive brain down and just DO SOMETHING!!!!!

I am going to set the timer for 15 minutes and go through what is on this dining room table and let that be my start.  If I can get a better picture of what's sitting here in need of doing, I might feel a little less frazzled.